I had a nightmare about you last night

and I developed all those pictures

but I can't stand to send them to you

why on earth are you doing this to me

all I can think of when I think of you

is all the leaves are brown

and the sky is grey.

You've put me through so much pain

and I don't even try to understand why

everything in my head that was keeping me up

has fallen apart and now my future is as bleak as ever without you in it

what will I do here

by myself

in this stupid place

how will I ever get through another semester

of being alone

especially when you made it so much worse than it was before

I love you to death

but you're not my friend

you're not taking care of me

you don't care what's going on with me

you don't call when I've obviously not doing well

and you make it twice as bad because you say all the things I want to hear