So you think all you got for your birthday was stood up and a bad check?

Well, maybe that is all you got. But maybe thats all you deserve. Maybe you should date N. It sounds like madness, and you know he's in love with someone else, and you'd be in way too deep way too fast. Maybe you should just try being normal without having a relationship with a significant other. Maybe you should tell j what is really going down, so that you don't have to deal with the pain of letting it run its course and realizing you are just another girl that comes up to the desk and talks to him.